Throwing tantrums

I was feeling a little emotional lately, and luckily I have some things that I can throw it to. Kids? No, yes.*sometime*..; it's my paintings and cooking. For paintings, I still maintained the soft colors not the bright angry or complicated colors like my life now. I painted some for customers and some as a gift to friends. My way of saying thank you!

For customer

My big canister

For Fairuz

For Kak Faridah

For Datin Faizah

And as for my cooking, anything that I could think of.. I made Quiche, chicken pie, chocolate cake, kebabs,layered sandwiches, tortillas and bread of course. How would I not be in my kitchen, I was at the Hospital with hubby for one month and a week. I was ever ready to cook for him. But I guess, the crazy crave will be over soon once my maid leave us for good.* sob*

Slices of chocolate cake

Quiche Lorraine

American chicken pie

A slice of chicken pie

Many a time I asked myself, why, we had to go through this test? What did we do to deserve this? Why can't we be normal, like we used to be? Argh!! I have to be positive and innovative to carry on life. But sometimes I was just not strong enough. I am a normal human after all. I guess it's normal for anyone in my situation to have sad feelings or have plenty of questions in our mind. And it's up to individual how they tackle it.

I do have sleepless nights or feeling awfully upset on what is happening.. Ya, maybe one of those bad days I went through with my kids. Or I simply picked on them to throw my tantrum. Every tiny winy things I got upset. I have wonderful kids, yes I do.. They contributed in their own different ways. But they are normal human too, they do make mistakes. It's just that, they got carried away with their own things...

My beloved kids, we need to be together! We are family and I need you guys.
In any case, family ties is important. A strong bonding between us will soon solve whatever we are facing, no matter what. I believe strongly that we will go through all this. Only time will tell us when.

This is life! When things happened, it stricken you awhile..until you get complacent with it, for life is not like a bed of roses.