Feeling the blues..

I was under the weather again twice in six months..this time totally knock out..tak boleh nak bukak mata..dari pagi sampai ke malam. Telan panadol after 4 hours..I never like panadol, it gave me an upset tummy. But what I can I say, it helped to cool down the temperature for awhile than back under the blanket again... Today, after 3 days tak baik baik, my Doctor prescribed me antibiotic and cough mixture ..problem pulak..I felt nausea, floating on air..and perut naik angin..argh! macam2. Called up the clinic, aand was told the cough mixture is rather strong.
Nasib lah ada anak dara.. semalam jadi chef kat dapur. Hmm..makan pasta or salad la sakit2 ni, itu yang selalu dimasaknya. Oh! tidak lagi, she made butter prawn with kelapa di goreng garing2 and Chicken with ginger and complete dengan fried vege. Alhamdullillah, lega tekak Ma dia yang sakit ni. Apalagi, Papa yang suka sangat, tak berhenti memuji, *very neat the way she cooks* macam2 lagi pujian...jeles I.
 My maid? Oh she can cook, *Anik pun dah berjangkit flu, and resting*.. if possible, we would prefer to cook with our own hands..and nak bagi anak dara tu responsible sikit, since she's not having her class that day. I kena bersyukur, she's doing fine since Papa got sicked she learn how to be independent..tak payah nak tunggu I jerit2.

Only this butter prawns I managed to snap. The rest
dah kena ngap

Bila dah berumur ni kena flu pun rasa teramat lah sakit, the whole body ached..especially when you bent down during solat...sakit lutut2. Hati pulak rasa sayu mendayu..You just can't help yourself from feeling the blues whenever you are not well...kinda grouchy. Rimas especially when you have irritating runny nose, sore throat..  Banyak2 kena istigfar, belum tua mana, dah tak tahan.
I have to stay healthy, I have a husband to take care.. takut sakit lama lama..I cannot do things for Hb..he needs my attention. Tapikan bila I sakit alahai lembik, entah lah memang macam tu kot. Kalau sihat merungut memanjang lenguh sini, lenguh sana.
Hb always remind me.. 'you have legs and healthy hands..you can do anything and drive anywhere you like, so make use of it without grumbling' Not until you are without them...bukan lah kata my Hb tak ada kaki tangan but not as strong as last time..

Our dinner last night, soupy noodle

 If you are living with a slightly sick man you have to be strong, eventho you are not. Yes, it's not easy for me at the beginning, knowing me the penakut and the lemah semangat etc... But I have overcome that slowly... still not fully..

Begedil daging/ayam.

I cannot turn the clock but how I wish I could..What ever happen already happened..I have to live with it. That is why, I love to occupy my time with my hobbies, something to get me away from negative thinking..Tak suka duduk memikir nasib. Apalagi, finding fault with others..why waste  your life with arguments with insignificant  people or worrying about something you cannot change. We have so much to offer.

Ikan Bawal masak Tauchoo

I want to believe in what ever situation or condition we are in...you can make the best of it.
Siapa nak di duga? kawan2, selalu bagi semangat "God is testing you because he knows that you can handle it'...insyallah, kuat kan lah aku ya Allah.. Sesungguhnya Allah itu maha kaya yang memberikan rezeki dan segalanya di Alam semesta ini..Hanya dengan perbanyakan doa dan sembahyang Hajat menguatkan diri..
Tho we went through hell during the critical time but were strong as a family. Slowly helping him during recuperating period..and alhamdullillah what Hb has become now is more than okay...tho not fully normal that he could drive around. Seribu syukur pada Illahi..that's he's up and about. What's important...he can hug me and we went hands in hands to Pavillion... just name the place *I la.. yang drive* like normal couple ...sob sob..Sedih you!
 Never mind his language on his bad days or his temperamental mood..I understand how he went through ..he needs to let it out. Kita yang sihat wal'afiat pun cannot control emosi....ya tak?

 Carrot Cake without topping..I baked for my Open fast 

on Monday.

Eh, nape tiba2 I rambling tak keharuan ni..... bila sakit mood pun tak betul..I just like to remind myself over and over again how we went through our days..menyedarkan diri..
Okay, tak nak sedih2, mari kita tengok my bunga di taman...*dah berapa hari tak masuk taman*
Pictures below were taken sometime last week..

Camsies, cepat membesar.

Datura

The bigger Datura

Adios, and see you in my next entry..insyaallah.
Just a short reminder, minum air banyak2. Jauhkan diri dari udara luar.
Memang ramai yg kena bad flu..