Que Sera Sera...

When I wake up in the morning my duty as a wife and mother begins..
The waking up is always the hardest part *Solat Subuh* as a Muslim encouraging one another to do the right thing, either they listen and perform willingly.. only God knows. But as for the person who reminds.. that is ganjaran, after all... they are the closest to us. But if you are to start your morning in a stressful manner, then your whole day will be spoiled. So.. I am taking it easy and taking a deep breath as I start to wake the kids up. Kalau boleh with the count of three I expect them to be up on their feet...or my pressure will be rising, hikhik.. Yes, I used to do that when they were younger, everything to the count of three. God! I miss those moment with them. Now, totally different, they are all adults. But then the tension is still the same every morning.

Yesterday's dinner, Baked Salmon and Smoke Beef

I hope when they leave their nest or their *bantal bushuk* they' be wiser...

I need to except and enjoy every moment with them.. Sometimes the smallest thing in life changes something forever and there will be times when you wish you can go back to how things used to be, but you just can't.. b'cos things have changed so much...

Tonight's dinner, Spaghetti Peperoni with Prawns

I am trying to cope every possible way to be in a steady mood, to take things in my stride... I do not want my anger to control my mind and behavior. It's easier said than done. I normally failed as my heart controlled my mind. A lot of changes I wish to make in order to be a survivor, as a Mum or a better human. Like.. be prepared when I meet a crooked path along my journey, and how to handle it well. Kalau boleh not blame it on the fate. What the future is like you can never predict. But at least, you could learn from your past.. I never expected I would be in the situation whereby I am stronger than Hb.. I always thought otherwise. Nothing can stop it from happening. So, what come may..


My Hb complaint pain on his right side of his body yesterday...mula lah I gabra! I can't helped it.. It has been close to two years already, still.. it saddened me ever to see him feeble at times or walking wobbly after a long rest. We got through it alright! tho lots of obstacles had come our way.

Cinnamon Rolls for Tea, today.

Beside sending Hb to Physio, I did not have anything much to do, as my normal living space is limited with the presence of the contractors. Happy to see Hb occupied himself with the Indon workers who were busy doing the construction. Like other days, I would normally be in my garden or spending time at the Patio reading, painting or what so ever. But since the renovation took place, I've no choice but to be indoors keeping myself busy with my lappy. Not much left to be done, just waiting for the sandstones to be delivered and by then everything will be completed...insyaallah! I can't really wait for I wanted so much to get some plants for my backyard. And also can't wait to start cooking at my new *open concept kitchen* at the backyard, heehee..

While Hb 1st day at Pantai Hospital... I was at Bangsar Village
at Plan B having Caramel Slice and Flat white coffee.

Meanwhile at home...
While baking my buns, my Sister Liza and Dira came to visit us.



Adios..